I remember the loss of my honor. In a desperate attempt to capture love, I surrendered something I could never get back. It didn’t take long to figure out that love had nothing to do with it. But I was just a teen-aged girl who had never been told that true love waits. It doesn’t use empty words to cajole and convince. It doesn’t prey on insecurities. It doesn’t seek its’ own pleasure at your expense. It waits. It honors.
In the years that followed, I discovered love that became angry when mixed with alcohol, love that left bruises both inside and out. I found love that held a magnifying glass over my every flaw and failure.
No one told me that in all my searching for love, I had found all that it is not.
And now I know but maybe you don’t. Maybe you’re still out there turning over every rock looking for the thing that will fill the empty space. Let me be the one who tells you. You are not pursuing love.
Because Jesus is love and fills the empty space all up and doesn’t promise what He never intends to give and He will never take away your honor.
Love sacrificed Himself for you so let me be the one who tells you that you will never be the sacrifice for His own pleasure.
No matter what you feel, or what they’ve told you, the Love that is pursuing you is not mad at you. You don’t have to look away and that isn’t eggshells under your feet, it’s holy ground because He is near, not angry.
And I know that you know all your failing and all your sins and let me be the one who tells you — you don’t need to get better and get it right. You need Him. Because Love covers it all in His own blood and chooses not to remember what you can’t seem to forget.
So let me be the one who tells you. Your soul wants love because your soul wants Jesus. And when you stop chasing after what love is not, you will find the Love that is pursuing you.